The Beginning of the End...

It's the last week of yoga and I'm sort of sad. I feel like I don't know what I am going to do without scheduling my life around yoga. Not that I can't ever do it again or anything, but it feels like it was a part of me, and now it won't be (hmmm... that seems like a familiar feeling.) Anyway, if I am being honest, I don't think that it has really changed my life like people claimed it would. I suppose that may be part of the problem-- that I was unrealistically hoping for it to change my life-- like one day towards the end of this month, I would wake up and be like 'wow! all of my issues have magically disappeared because of yoga!!' But I was under the guise that doing yoga every day would lead to other changes in my life-- my eating habits, my stress levels, etc. It really hasn't though. In fact, I have gained weight! At least 3-4 pounds. I don't really understand how that happened, but it did. In this article I read in O Magazine, this woman did yoga for 60 days and lost 10 pounds in the first 30.

"Do this yoga for 60 days and it will change your body, your mind, and your life," says Choudhury, a former Indian yoga champion who lives in Los Angeles and who is, depending on your viewpoint, either a beloved lifesaving guru or just a really flexible guy who got lucky, and rich, with an idea and a persona. His students believe, and I hope they're right, that Choudhury's heat-centric, copyrighted sequence of ancient hatha yoga postures is a transformative agent like no other; testimonials the world over suggest this yoga eases the symptoms of a range of maladies—depression, diabetes, carpal tunnel syndrome, fibromyalgia, migraines, arthritis, back pain, and heart disease, for instance—while relaxing the mind and slimming the body.

I mean come on!! I know I am only doing it for 31 days, but still! Where are my amazing transformations? I can tell you right now that I am not happier or less stressed or thinner. Granted, my arms and my abs feel stronger and I now know that I have the ability to work out every day and stay truly committed to something. But other than that.... Okay, I'm kidding, I know those things are pretty awesome. I can be positive. I can be positive, I can be positive....

Yoga was my life for the last month- it was my number one priority. I guess if I think about it, that means that I made myself my number one priority. Well, that's something new! Maybe I got more out of yoga than I thought I did. I mean that is one thing that I am striving for during this year- to make myself a priority and figure things out in the process, perhaps this is step one...I'm thinking now that I should do another 29 days of yoga!! Thoughts?