You know I do a lot of griping about how I feel like things haven't gotten better in the last year. This happens out of my inherent negativity, but in fact it is not entirely true. Now hold up, it's not like I have been lying all this time. I have been feeling less fun and more funky lately. However, with that being said, in an effort to be positive, there have been some improvements:
-I'm not running out of the room every time I hear a little "Don't Stop Believin'" (this statement does not apply when I am drunk, then all bets are off, although I usually end up more belligerent, less sad.)
-I don't tear up every time I have moment to myself (in the car, at home, walking down the street...)
-Aside from the occasional bitter comment, I don't talk about Tony that much (okay, this is in comparison people...)
-I don't cry every time I talk to Tony (although I don't talk to him that much anymore, so that could be why. Ha)
-Oh! I don't get all upset every time anyone talks about getting married/engaged....See, lots of improvements!!
-Most of all, even though things didn't work out with NH#2, I've realized that I am ready to be in another relationship, like for realz, which seriously feels so huge to me. Sure, I'm still pretty skittish and there are definitely times that I feel like shutting down and never dealing with guys again, but for the most part, I'm willing to give it a shot....
Don't you boys all come banging down my door all at once...
Coming Soon .... ?
15 years ago


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